Half used Journals

Boy it's been a while....Sorry!!

I have this obsession with buying journals. I dunno, I like the idea of having one book full of my unfiltered thoughts and prayers. However...I use the journal for about 2 months then it goes unfinished. I am afraid that this blog will become one of those half used journals.

I am really good at starting something then not finishing it. (Reference my Project 365...) I have good intentions and great ideas, but sometimes have a problem with the execution. I am not a details oriented person and have never been really good at putting my thoughts in order. I can see the big picture but can't get the details together to make it.

This comes in handy when I take pictures. I can get the full vision of what I want the photo to be and can execute well. It however doesn't come in handy when you are planning a lesson. So many times I have this wonderful idea of how I want the lesson to go, but I forget one crucial detail and it doesn't work out so well. It's also a good thing I am a spontaneous person and can adjust easily and just fly by the seat of my pants (an idiom I taught my students last week).

I have come to realize I am completely the opposite when it comes to life. I get so bogged down with all the details of how, and why and where, and who that I just freeze and stop. I am so glad that My Creator is a details AND big picture person. He sees the end result and knows also every minute step in getting to where I need to be.

The past few weeks He has really been concerned about the details with me. He is not ok with me giving half of my brain to Him. He wants to full thing and won't settle for anything less. He wants me to learn every detail about myself and to confront every sin I have in my life. He is in the details of our relationship and I am learning to trust Him. This is where my brain has been for the past 3 weeks. Sorting out the details, digging deeper and deeper with Him and allowing Him to pull out the unwanted things and filling the holes with His love, grace, mercy, and acceptance.

Thanks for praying with me! And please continue to do so. This year has been a lot of soul searching for me, and I know He is preparing me for something big!! A BIG PICTURE I can't even begin to conceptualize.